bois will be bois blog
Some asshole drove by me today, while I was sitting on the stoop, shaking his head and staring at me. I looked back to see if he saw something shameful or hard to look at sitting behind me, but there was nothing there. Only me. Cooling it on the steps, talking on the phone, in my neighborhood.
[Should be noted that I was on the phone with a dope new Toronto based online magazine's marketing director, discussing ways that we (bklyn boihood) could start working together, building community, healing the world, etc.] Found that slightly ironic.
I stare back. He grimaces. I shrug my shoulders and mouth the words, "what the fuck are you looking at?". He shrugs his shoulders and makes a face, as if he's disguisted, as if I was offending him, as if the sight of me sickened him. Then he mouths back, "Nothing". Shakes his head, frowns, looks up at the green light, drives away. Ugh!
I remind myself that I'm okay. I remind myself that I'm not a freak. I remind myself that I have to face shit like that, and keep it moving so that my folks don't have to someday. I let it roll off my back cuz I can't hold on to that hatred. I need to find a place in my heart to love that man. He doesn't understand. He's ignorant. He's insecure.
Maybe I looked like someone else...
My friend said she's surprised because I typically pass around here anyway. She said she'd be surprised if he even knew I was a girl. Maybe he thought I was a gay boy. Either way he hated me. And made sure I knew it.
There was a time that shit like that made me feel embarrassed... ashamed even. Past that now. But it still fucks with me a little.
Lights green now though, gotta keep it moving.
check out my fellow brown boi Micah Domingo. he just started T (Testosterone) today!
about Micah (hip-hop/spoken word artist): he's a transman of color, hoping to make an impact on the world through music, education and awareness about his personal struggle. he has a love for airplanes. "watching them, flying on them, watching them some more...". annnnd his favorite drink is Sprite;)
day before he started T.
just about to start T.
music video i swiped off youtube. dope shit!